The Awakening Nightmare

But then who would give a wit, 
Then if all were to turn to ashes?
The world turns gray within my mouth 
I regard the folly of my life.
Dedicated to the service of the
Unloving,
Uncaring
God.
Bleeding,
Dying, 
A martyr never sought,  
Passed over in the dark.  
 
(Daughter, how my heart weeps for him, for in losing you, He does in deed lose me.  Reason alone can not Save him, nor any longer, I fear, can you)  
Heart of My soul, you have fled me 
Your Holiness shed away from fear.
Your beauty laid open to all,  
Forbidden to none but me
Now I seek you in the debasement of my being.
The lie that is my soul
Lies bare before the world

A joke, 
A prank by a Laughing God,
That Love could come to one as me,
A Fool with no names.  
Heart of my soul, you have found my name  
Called it aloud for all to hear,
Student
Of Folly, 
Student  Of weakness,  Student
No More.
My flesh is not armor against you.
As my Heart Shatters
My Soul dies
My sword,   

My shield have been
  Taken from me,
my lance has been shattered,