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The
First Ending of the
Light
Mountains,
though not high,
Covered up with a snowy
coat,
Ice covered pathways
seek to trip my feet,
The journey's master
fills his cart,
We sit in silence grim dark,
Riding as the master
turns the wheel,
The descent to ending
has begun.
No
sun will light these deadened lands,
No heart will sing in
joy,
The empty branches drip weep,
Their tears frozen
still in motion
As a prayer hangs
without devotion,
Unheard by
He
Who Is All That Is.
They
who sit in gloom beside me,
Afore me,
Behind me,
Stare with blind eyes
out
Dim windows, dirty with
grime,
See me not, know
you not,
Love me not.
I
see a frozen lake before me,
No life upon it's hoary
face, no lights
No huts of fishermen,
No children with their
skates,
No moon, no stars,
Just clouds grayness
Your visage is so far
away.
(Father, now, how
many centuries later? And still
you torture him?
Why? Is it for love of her, whom you created?)
They
asked me of you tonight,
I said, you were still
hidden from my sight.
I knew not where you
dwelt,
Whether within still
walls so cold,
Or had you freed
yourself from pain?
(Of whom does he
speak, daughter, you or she?)
(Father, after all
these years of pain, does it matter? No
jealousy
Rests within me.
Why do you pain them so?)
I
know not, now, where you are,
Nor whither should I
go.
Long nights have passed
in silence here,
My devotion slowly
yields to fear.
No message comes now to
guide me,
I've lost the path in
Flames of Snow,
Forgive me love,
I know not where, or
how
To go to find you now.
A
voice whispers in my ear
Have
you forgotten whom you seek?
Has flesh come to rule
your soul?
Is it a Woman for whom
you cry?
Or My Daughters
Hand
In yours
In Holy Union
That you seek?
I
struggled with the echo,
For but a moment, then,
Dismissed Its
Question
For my souls
Singular Salvation.
Too, now I hear, a call from other lands
A call the renders mute
The gentle sounds
Of the
I
AM WHO AM
I
slowly feel the self-assumed
Knighthood
Slip away from my
shoulders,
The monk's cloak has
fallen bare,
I stand alone, on
darkened stairs
Wondering where to go?
Ahead rests a world
Called
Reality,
Behind rest a broken
dying
Dream
(Father, no, you cant let it end this wayNO!)
I
feel the dream that
one day anew the strength of He that I was
Will pour through my
weakened bones,
Bathing me in fire,
Stilling all desire,
Lifting me above
The world,
Viewing you as but a
dream,
Your Father's call but an illusion,
I begin to feel for
truth-- in shock
I realize.
The
dream of you has ended,
You
are gone where you would be,
I can no longer seek
for you,
For you have bade me
seek no more.
(Daughter, now, do
you begin to understand? Its
not one or the other
he seeks, but both.)
(Then, Father let me
redeem his error, I shall take mortal guise and..)
(No, daughter, you
may not)
(Then as darkness
falls upon the earthly man,
God expelled from
his fear filled heart
As he who was your
student
Accuses His Teacher
of deserting Him
When all you called
for
Has faded once
more
)
(My Father, all I
asked from was his Love.
Will you not return
him to me and cease his endless quest that leads
Him to naught?)
(I cannot)
(Or will not?)
(Is there a
difference?)
(Father, you seem so
cruel)
(Daughter, I am
God!)
(But he believed in
you, trusted in you.)
(If so, then why did
he search for you, my daughter, Wisdom?)
(Father?)
(Should he not have
sought my folly instead?)
(I dont
understand?)
(Daughter, men say
Gods folly is wiser then mans wisdom)
(Then how can You
expect a mans wisdom,
Without mine, to
approach yours? And if it cannot,
Then how can they
know not to seek me? And if they
are not
To seek me, why did
you create me?
Am I but a
temptation away from Faith?)
(No child, you are
one path to Faith, but a long a hard path
You are to mankind)
(Then why do you
reproach and punish my children, my students,
For seeking me?)
(To teach those who
know of you, that there is more, perhaps?)
(Father, I am not
convinced, I have but to look upon him and ask,
Then was that the
point of his poor life, and all his pain?
He never found me
after allso was he to suffer and die for my sake?)
(Not at all,
daughter, not at all, for he is incapable, alone..)
(Yet you keep him
from me with a dream of the one who was once a part of him)
(Should he not seek
unity?)
(How can he live
when you steal unity from him, Faith from him,
Then keep him from
me?)
(He still stands,
and so does she)
(Yet, now Father,
they are apart forever, and he is lost to me again.
What has been gained
by this endless game?)
(Daughter, dear,
they both have gained.)
(How so? What has
she gained?
Again separate from
the one true love she could have had?)
(Daughter, for all
the rest of her life,
In her heart she
will know she was loved both
Unconditionally,
And as a woman
Yet not so much for her flesh,
As for her heart;
And so will keep a
part
Of Heaven in her)
(Yes Father?
And him?)
(O, he will always
remember her rejection
Of both his love
unconditional
And human
And in his heart,
Possess a small
amount
Of Hell!)
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